During the year Terri was ill I was bewildered; during the year since then I have als been bewildered. I suppose someone will say, "There is nothing to be bewildered about as we all know what happened". Terri didn't want a prognosis and made it clear she didn't want to acknowledge, never mind talk about what was happening to her. Courageously, Terri always talked about the future as if her illness didn't exist, so I was unable to discuss it with her. In June 2016, mmediately after Terri was told she had days or weeks to live, she talked about what we would do for Christmas. Eventually, although I had an accurate prognosis, I went along with Terri's attitude, half believing it and that she would recover. I am still bewildered by it. ❤️💔🙁