After all this time I still find it difficult to accept that Terri has gone: I feel shock at the awfulness of what has happened and also disbelief. It would have been much better in many ways if I had died instead of Terri. I had already done everything that I wanted to in life - but a Terri had not; Terri was much happier with life than I and she gave so much more to it; Terri hadn't had time to enjoy life because she was working so much and was looking forward to retirement that never happened; she is beautiful, and a lovely person. ❤💔🙁