I am feeling Terri's presence more often and more strongly now, not, as one would expect, at the lodge, the flat or the shop, but most strongly in the street and along the seashore at Picklecombe. The rational part of me says this is merely a combination of memories, wishful thinking and imagination - but I feel there is more to it than that. My memories are just thoughts (electrical impulses) inside my head so Terri has no further part in them after they are formed: no more than she is present in photographs. As an aside to this thought, I am not so very sure that she doesn't have a spiritual presence in both the photographs and my memories: how else would we have emotional reactions to groups of coloured dots and electrical impulses? Nevertheless, I don't want 'just' memories - I want Terri. But when those memories coalesce in our minds to produce something *new*, beyond and in addition to those original memories, I think that is partly where Terri's spirit is, for all of us, not just for me: she is everywhere, but especially within us if we allow it. Terri is within me; part of me and part of who I am: she lives in me, as I live in her. Terri tells me that she has been avoiding coming to me too clearly in places where she will frighten me (the lodge etc.) as she knows that I am (unfortunately) receptive to such things but afraid of them, easily 'spooked' and then have nightmares. Terri also tells me she is enjoying the freedom of being able to go where she likes: to see me and Hercules and the boys one moment then to go on the Cremyll ferry the next. Terri is very calm.