In early May 2015 Terri and I led normal lives, thinking nothing wrong and expecting a normal future. Now she is gone. I have been so ill for weeks: 5 admissions to hospital (4 as emergencies) and 2 operations under general anaesthetic in 3 days - that I couldn't remember Terri properly as she was before her illness. Now she has come back to me as she was. But there is an enormous 'hole' in my life where she belongs - I am so unhappy. Where has she gone?